terz is in bangkok for some business training thingie and he's coming home tmr.
i miss them so much...
BOO!!
pics soon :)
and i apologize for that.
i have been thinking/praying/hoping/applying for jobs..
my mom thinks that i'm silly flying all the way to another country, staying at a shitty place struggling financially, and trying to survive on my own but i'm really hoping that this is a good change.
man, i wished i had the financial capability to cont. studying.. the more reason why i desperately need a JOB right now.
nothing much is new. but i'm doing ok. and i'm happy.. although i really need a JOB right now. but i'm hopeful, really hopeful that everything will be better someday :)
ps: i told thebf that on the day i get a job, i'll be going on a shopping spree!!! i've already planned the things that i wanna get/ the places i wanna shop at... and he's not surprised. haha...
serenity. courage. wisdom.
now would be a damn good time to pray.
think positive. think positive.
thebf vs thefamily
moremoney vs money
my independence vs being dependent
the possibility of being unemployed vs a job guaranteed
working is aus vs the possibility of not being able to work there forever
sunshine & winter vs clouds & haze
the beach, the ribs, the beef vs the cheap, good Malaysian cuisine
how do u choose between possiblytheone and your family? how can you choose between your motherland and the country you've grown to love? how can you achieve a balance between the eastern and western cultures and still blend-in with everyone else?
it's like my head wants something but my heart wants something else. i think my biggest fear is that i'll be unemployed... for a long, long time when i could be working & earning a living somewhere in msia.
but then again, life's all about taking chances, RIGHT?
also, i..
- improved my cooking skills.i actually applied those cooking skills that i've learnt from ex-hsemate, shing. had cooking sessions every sunday night in the first half of 2007, later spent time cooking with terz.
- mom came to sydney. also, i travelled quite a bit. which is also why i'm broke now.
- singapore (when terz was working there)
- kiama (for the blow hole and scenery)
- robertson (where they made the movie babe)
- canberra
- melbourne (super short trip for 3 days 2 nights)
- tasmania
- new zealand (south island)
- hong kong

-received my v first gucci and agnes b. bags. and both had to be donated from the leung family.
- my grades improved & graduated from uni. WOHOO!!!
- met the bf's family. grown to love them, their cool gadgets, and HK.
- ordered a stripper for ange's bday party. it's the first time i've seen a real stripper, LIVE!!!
- attended sabbath services more regularly, which has helped me a lot in many many ways.
-fell in love with indonesian cruisine. and fresh tasmanian oysters. and toohey's extra dry. and moet & chandon.
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i wish i didn't have to choose...
xx
ride home wasn't too bad, had brekkie with friends and took a cab to the airport.
i didn't think much, in fact i soddof blocked everything off coz one thing would lead to another and i would really NOT wanna start crying hysterically in the plane...
even before terz left to work, he said that he'll miss me and that he loves me and i told him to stop because i was already tearing and i knew all that and those words would only make me more emo than i already was.
ahhh.. i miss uni.
i'm so gonna miss the friends and the people that i've met and the ucf, and the skip-class-and-have-lunch meals, just being a student, and not worrying much about anything.
today, one day after my final exam, i'm worried about the future.
fu*k.
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