today i'm happy about:
- the home we might be living in
- phone conversations with my mum and a close friend i haven't seen in ages
- cheap air tickets to msia: i really miss home!!!
- easter long weekend - yaay! not working today!
- rain... it makes me happy that i'm indoors
- life in general, i'm at a very happy place now. thank God!
it's all been work work work and church and clean and mess up the place again and cook and sleep and eat and shop and shop and sleep....
i haven't had time to rest...
plus the crazy -ass weather...
and now i'm sick and stuck at home.. watching deal or no deal...
ARGH
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i went crazy today. bought two pairs of nine west shoes. yup.
coz i couldn't make up my mind on which one i wanted.
career
as you all have probably realized, i'm back in sunny sydney. i've taken the chance of pursuing my dreams of a better and more fulfilling future by coming here and starting over. and i guess i have been struggling at the beginning with jobs and money and rent and etc but i really thank God that everything has worked out ok at the end. i now have a job as a sales and marketing executive, which is interesting but involves a lot of self discipline and control. the contract ends at dec and i am hoping to move on to another company where i can have better opportunities. i also don't really like working at home on some days, coz i don't really have much self discipline and control. i am hopeful and am hoping to land ton he job of my dreams someday.
love
everything has been good so far. thebf and i will be celebrating our 3.5 years anniversary next week and sometimes i can't believe that someone so different from me can be so similar to me and yet understand me so well. i am so grateful and thankful that i have found him but i have to admit that the difference in our religion is a HUGE hindrance to a future that we hope to have together. but like i said, things are great and if our relationship were to be drawn on a graph it would be a smooth, straight horizontal line. even though a few months ago we had this huge huge fight that almost ended our relationship
things that bother me
his brother. will not elaborate further. do not want to insult.
shopping
with the stock market crash and all, consumer spending in australia has dropped. ironically, my individual spending has not. i have bought a total of 5 pairs of shoes last month, so not funny. and if you have spent any time with me last year, you'll realize that that's more than the amount of shoes that i bought in the whole of last year!( in Australia, Malaysia is not counted). With having a job and all, my spending has increased a significant amount (thank God my mom doesn't read blogs) but i am so loving my shoe collection. so much that i am going to list down the shoes that i have bought last month ( i know, i'm such a loser)
1. black gladiator heels in black, nine west
2. blue patent flats that was on sale, steve madden
3. banglez in silver, steve madden (it finally came out online!)
4. beige/brown leather heels for work (was on sale!! only $50), witchery
5. a pair of studded black gladiator flats online. was cute and cheap!
ah, i am such a sucker for shoes. and bags. thebf complained last year that i never wore shoes but this year, he is complaining that i buy too many pairs!!!
also, i have recently received an incredible present, a chanel 2.55 bag. you know i really don't want to be this materialistic person who is so into designer goods but i got it out of a random non-occasion and it was the bag that i have always dreamt of having. i hate to brag but i love love love the bag. ahh, i promise its gonna be passed on from generations to generations, its gonna be in my family heirloom, i will love it for life. and fyi, i got the bag in black, medium and in caviar
and i think now, my collection is complete.
who am i kidding, i still heart the miu miu bow satchel!!! then, i can say that my collection is completely complete.
thanks bf! i still can't believe you spent part of your bonus on me!
my christian faith
lets just say that i am trying to be a better christian. sometimes i still feel different because it is so strict compared to what i am used to, and sometimes i struggle between church and.. non church activities. at the end of the day, i really hope to achieve a healthy balance between all of those.
yup. that is all.
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i just bought

ninewest.com.au
and on my way home, i stumbled upon

stevemadden.com.au
& i'm trying to convince myself that i don't need it but it looks so darn good, and it's so suitable for summer!
opinions, anyone?
xx
Labels: shopping
ok. i should stop else it will never end.
xx
Total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.
1. At what age do you wish to marry?
when i'm ready to commit, when i know that it's with the right person, at the right time.
2.Will you like someone that is younger than you?
I don't know. It really depends on the level of maturity that the person has. No point being with someone older who isn't mature, right?
3. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
Malaysia, I miss my family. But also Japan & Europe!
4. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
To be successful in all things, to be contented and to be happy. Crap, that's 3 dreams.
5. Do you believe you can survive without money
Can anyone survive without money? Don't think you can, these days.
6. What are you afraid to lose the most?
God, family, friends.
7. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
A house, a few Chanel bags and Louboutins (and others), a BMW for dad, TRAVELLING, and i'll save the rest for the future or sth.
8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Yep.
9. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
1) he's cute. hahaha.. like a big teddy bear :)
2) he's kind and a good listener and a great brother :)
3) he loves food, like me! hahaha
10. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
that's easy. someone who is understanding, who enjoys life, someone who is Christian, hopefully. someone who is intelligent and who does his best, someone who is humble (i can't stand show-offs), someone who knows how to chill, who strives to be better. someone who is a positive influence on me, someone who helps me be a better person, someone who is interesting, i admire and can be myself with. ok too much.
11. Which type of person do you hate the most?
refer to rant on top.haha. really, someone who is a show-off, who doesn't try do stand on his own two feet (in other words, rely too much on others), someone who is useless and lazy, someone who is self-involved, someone who is messy. and someone who is not truthful and who back stabs.
12. If you are given the chance to go back to the past and make a difference, will you?
What makes you think that I'm not making a difference now
13. What is the thing that will make you think that he/she is bad?
Huh??
14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Career. Happiness. Finding my way in life.
15. Are you a shopaholic or not?
Yes.
16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
Ok. I would like to be less bad tempered and yeah, more sociable when I'm meeting people for the first time
17. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
My best friend, Tezza!
18. What's your weakest point?
I'm lazy.
19. What's the thing that you're most proud of?
I guess being able to make it here at Aus on my own.
20. Are you going to school/college/work tomorrow ?
Yup, work :(
You Are tagged!!:
when and if you tag youself
Labels: quiz
and i'd like to think that this is a place where i can share my thoughts (to myself?) and maybe get some clarity of all that has been happening.
xx
this is me ranting. and you don't have to read it coz i'm damn pissed.
i can't stand people who try to hurt/ judge/ bear false testimonies about me behind my back and say DON'T TELL THIS TO KAREN.
if you hate me so much, if you think all that you say about me is true and just, and if you think you're right and i'm wrong and that you're the king of the world, why the fuck do you say all these things about me behind my back and say DON'T TELL THIS TO KAREN. i mean, what... are you scared that i'll find out that you're spreading lies about me and reverse all of that?
and telling your parents and my bf? really, how low can you get? you really want to break me down and tear me into pieces don't you? stupid asshole.
xx
that was me last friday.
today, i'm really thinking about this relationship that i'm in.
today, i'm thinking about trust and i'm wondering where i stand in his life and whether he will do all he can to protect me.
today, i'm worried that he will hurt me & turn his back on me.
today, i still have this urge to take revenge and make him suffer even though i promised that i wouldn't.
xx
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